Remembering Jenny

A year ago my only sister died. And the past 12 months have, each in different ways, been periods of accommodating to this fact. I feel her reality still, can hear the sound of her voice, visualize her manner, imagine sharing a laugh with her, at someone pompous or ridiculous.

Some are said to be “larger than life.” But this did not describe Jenny. I recognized in her, as in myself, the unremitting attempt to find a way into life, a feeling that life was somehow outside our reach. Was she friendly, personable and could she be outgoing? Certainly, But I cannot escape the sense that feelings of loss and regret were perhaps the largest reality for her, as for me. “Living in the moment” was never easy … perhaps impossible. By many outward measures, she was successful, but life was, inevitably, lived at a remove, and the sorrow that provoked, and the sorrow that had provoked that distance, was never far away.

The recognition of this common inability to inhabit ones own life was perhaps the strongest connection Jenny and I shared. It drove us each into isolated lives, seeking meaning within, unable to tolerate the chatter of society; the company of other people proved as much an irritant as a comfort.

I always wished for her, as I do for myself, the pure sensuous joy of existence, the feeling of abandon that comes when one stops worrying if one is good enough, has done enough. Herewith, in her memory, my favorite stanza from the Wallace Stevens poem Sunday Morning, that Jenny and I contrived to memorize:

 
Why should she give her bounty to the dead?
What is divinity if it can come
Only in silent shadows and in dreams?
Shall she not find in comforts of the sun,
In pungent fruit and bright, green wings, or else
In any balm or beauty of the earth,
Things to be cherished like the thought of heaven?
Divinity must live within herself:
Passions of rain, or moods in falling snow;
Grievings in loneliness, or unsubdued
Elations when the forest blooms; gusty
Emotions on wet roads on autumn nights;
All pleasures and all pains, remembering
The bough of summer and the winter branch.
These are the measures destined for her soul.
 

My Struggle

Just finished book two of Karl Ove Knausgaard’s seemingly endless autobiography. I do feel, as one reviewer said, that “even when I’m bored, I’m interested.” There is something about the confessional nature of the books, and about following Knausgaard’s restless and intelligent mind, even into the trivial details of life, that is interesting and addictive. On to book three.

The Lunchbox

A lovely little movie from India. Of course it’s not American…. no one in our culture uses food as a trope for passion and intimacy or, indeed, would be comfortable making a movie centered on that mundane midday meal, lunch. The Lunchbox gets its beauty and effect from its everyday subject, used as a bridge between two souls, one, Ila, the ardent maker of that meal, the other, Saajan, its unintended recipient.

India’s intricate and fascinating lunch delivery system, in which housewives cook meals for their husbands, which are then ferried to them by deliverymen, provides the opportunity for the mixup at the center of the film, in which the meals cooked by Ila are accidentally delivered to a complete stranger. Over a period of days and weeks the two exchange notes via the delivery service. The topic of these exchanges, while seeming to center on the food, quickly acquires additional dimensions, and we sense that a romance may be brewing, even as Ila’s discontent with her husband increases and we see the full extent of the loneliness felt by Saajan, a widower.

The movies is ultimately inconclusive about the possibility of a connection between the two, as events conspire to bring them closer and then, in a twist worthy of O. Henry, drive them in different directions, as Saajan makes decisions based upon what he thinks he is allowed, rather than upon the choices with which he is presented.

Ultimately, it’s a film about intentionality as opposed to results (no fabricated American-movie happy ending here), and about learning when it’s best to override the head with the heart. It’s about missed appointments that speak volumes, and about messages that arrive by unconventional means. A truism repeated in the movie, “sometimes the wrong train will get you to the right destination” speaks to the futility of planning too carefully in life, and the wisdom of seizing opportunities when they arrive, no matter how unexpectedly.

So Long, See You Tomorrow

William Maxwell’s remembrance of childhood and of an episode of violence whose effects rippled into his old age is a book too evocative and too tender even to produce tears. One hundred years ago in this country is, we come to realize, much longer ago than it sounds. This is a time foreign to us now, but still in our bones, an almost ghostly past, fey, yet firmly rooted in the well-chosen details of the text. Were things better then? Implicity, Maxwell says they were, but he does not write to produce nostalgia. Rather, longing, perhaps … a hopeless longing that hides behind sparse language. I remember, but cannot locate, an example describing a new childhood home, the transition into whose emptiness might stand in for what we discover moving from childhood to adulthood, or from early twentieth century to early twenty-first century America.

Martin Eden

For the first 100 hundred pages of Jack London’s “must-read” (according to the Guardian, and seconded, implicitly, by its inclusion in Wendy Lesser’s list of 100 books to read for pleasure) novel, I could not figure out why Martin Eden has aroused such ardent support. It seemed, by turns, clumsily-written, painfully repetitious, and generally juvenile in its absorption with the budding intellectual life and Horatio Alger-like strivings of the book’s eponymous protagonist, as prompted and spurred on by his school boy obsession with Ruth, the cloistered and high-minded sister of Martin’s well-heeled friend.

But, at some subtly indefinable point, Martin’s love for Ruth comes to seem less the moonings of a credulous young man confusing something inattainable with the true source of his desires, and more the genuine story of two people falling in love. At nearly the same time, London’s writing also takes hold of the reader, and begins to show the sensitivity and complexity of a real novel, rather than the simplicity of a Harlequin romance.

Feeling that we are in the hands of a capable writer, it is easier now to drop our cynicism about the naivete of these two young lovers, and to feel genuinely moved when, two pages on from the above discription, they, for the first time, kiss.

Youth and Nostalgia

Coincidentally, my three most recent reads (Lady, by Thomas Tryon; The Children of Dynmouth, by William Trevor; and The Mountain Lion, by Jean Stafford) have all featured youthful protagonists, described by three authors who, each in a unique way, attempt to recapture something of the simplicity of that time of life. In the course of this reading, I’ve naturally found myself hearkening back to my own youth and, in the process, trying to understand the feeling of nostalgia that inevitably accompanies such an exercise.

The trope of longing is prominent in Lady, a bildungsroman that traces Woody’s development from boy to man, with the eponymous Lady as his guide and touchstone all along the path to adulthood. As Woody enters adulthood, we feely keenly his internal stress at forging new life, with a wife and children, as he also quietly mourns the loss of what is past, and of those who inhabited that lost world. Lady is not only a real character, Woody’s ‘boom companion,’ but, in the symbolic capacity indicated by her capitalized and anonymous appellation, a figure for the knowledge that complicates our relationship with the world as we grow to maturity, inevitably causing us to view our earlier years as somehow more pristine and desirable.

Knowledge may sully the apparent perfection of our earliest ideals, in the same way that Woody’s growing awareness of Lady’s past troubles him. But, Tryon seems to be saying, greater knowledge should not lead to cynicism about the past; nostalgia is a legitimate sensation rather than a sign of vapid sentimentality, a window into a privileged condition that cannot be contaminated by subsequent events, but to which we cannot return.

Wisely aware of this Keatsian dilemma, Lady gives Woody a book, A Shropshire Lad, and points him to the fortieth poem in Housman’s volume. The older, nostalgic Woody, the writer, can finally appreciate the land, the past, as things of ‘lost content’ rather than ‘discontent.’

 
‘Into my heart an air that kills
From yon far country blows:
What are those blue remembered hills,
What spires, what farms are those?

That is the land of lost content,
I see it shining plain,
The happy highways where I went
And cannot come again.’

Together we looked down along the valley, our eyes tracing the ‘happy highways’ where each of us, of different
generations, had grown up, the valley which was the land, not of my lost content, for I was too young to know that
then, but what seemed like the land of my discontent, and I was more eager than ever to leave it ….

[Lady, Dell paperback edition, p. 271]
 

 
William Trevor’s odd, slight novel, The Children of Dynmouth, provides an antidote for nostalgia. The bizarre antics of Timothy Gedge remind the reader of the awkwardness of adolescence; Gedge, adrift in a lonely life not of his own design, is yet too young for the adulthood with which he tries to connect but, sensing a future of seemingly inevitable bleakness, mocks himself and the grownups around him by constantly creating some parodic version of an adult self.

And, in The Mountain Lion, we encounter Ralph and Molly, two children who follow divergent paths into young adulthood: Ralph, by moving to live with his uncle in Colorado, escapes the stultifying life in Covina, CA, a “fat” life of disingenuous superficiality, to live with his Uncle Claude and sample a freer, wilder existence. In the process he gains skills that reinforce his sense of himself as a man. For Molly, the move to Colorado, while preferable to remaining in Covina, brings with it fears and neuroses that threaten her sanity. Perhaps foremost among Molly’s anxieties is a developing fear of sexuality, brought to the fore by a random remark from Ralph, which clouds and complicates their relationship. Not since Quention Compson’s relationship with his sister Caddie in The Sound and the Fury has there been a brother-sister dynamic in literature so fraught with guilt, fear, and complex emotions.

Ultimately, it seems as though Molly and Ralph leapfrog into adulthood. For Molly in particular, the post-Edenic vision comes quickly and harshly. There is no place for nostalgia in Stafford’s world.

The Woman Upstairs

Claire Messud’s 2013 novel, The Woman Upstairs, about a lonely middle-aged schoolteacher who becomes obsessed with the family of one of her students, is a compelling but puzzling read. The story itself is straightforward, presenting Nora Eldridge’s first-person account of her hum-drum existence teaching third grade in a Boston suburb, frustrated by goals unrealized, in her life, art and interpersonal relations, and enraged by what she perceives as American society’s marginalization of her kind: the unexceptional woman trained since birth to be “nice.”

Into Nora’s predictable existence comes the Shahid family, first in the person of her third grade student, Reza, then in Sirena, his mother, the beautiful artist, and, finally in Skandar, Sirena’s husband. Each member of the family bewitches Nora in some way and, by circumstance all are drawn closer to her. The book’s arc, however, traces the sad unwinding of her intimacy with the family. Ultimately, Nora feels the painful results of having invested herself too fully in her connection with the Shahids; she feels the sting of a final betrayal more keenly because she has, in different ways, given herself over to each member of the family, but particularly to Sirena, a proxy for the bolder, more cosmopolitan, more successful self Nora has never realized.

As readers we struggle to understand Messud’s view of Nora and, in turn, how to see the heroine ourselves. We know, if only from Messud’s biography, that this is fiction, not memoir. Yet there are few signs of separation between creator and creation. In this first-person narration, we have only Nora’s words, which are clean, often self-lacerating, and, for most of the book, convincing. She has few deficiencies which allow us to identify a gap between her intelligence and that of the author; the latter seems complicit in forgiving her unrelenting focus on the Shahids, granting her the excuse of love which, while always teetering on the edge of mania, for the most part feels warm and genuine.

Nora is such an acute observer of her own life that she catches and describes her weaknesses, wayward moods, self-deceptions, and unrealistic hopes even before we readers can mock her obsession or criticize her choices. For the most part, her story is taut, gripping, well-structured. There is no rambling, no ravings of a madwoman in the attic. Only toward the book’s end, do we begin to tire of her, begin to feel that her hopes are unrealistic, her Shahid-centered life a true madness. But, then, the climax is so devastating, and her response to it so reasonable, under the circumstances, that we find ourselves again at one with her, allied against her betrayer.

One conclusion we may reach, then, is that Messud’s Nora, like Updike’s Rabbit, in some sense the projection of a parallel self, an identity unrealized in the world, but alive in the mind, nurtured inwardly, until it flowers in fiction.

A Hazard of New Fortunes, part deux

Upon reading further into AHoNF, it became clear to me that the early chapters, involving scene-setting and character-introducing, represent a weaker aspect of Howells’ craft. These chapters feel wooden and perfunctory because they were written only out of necessity. Once the plot structure has been established, and the players trotted out, Howells can proceed with the substance of his work, that which truly moves him, which is the questioning of the American capitalist ideal. That Dryfoos pere is so well-rendered in the scene when he and March first meet shows that Howells is certainly capable of creating realistic dialogue and three-dimensional characters, as long as it is in the service of his ideas;  as much as he seems to fancy himself a novelist of manners, Howells is occasionally guilty of allowing the struts of his underlying philosophy to poke through the overlaying artifice of real life he has constructed, making him seem more political didact than novelist.
Clearly, March is the mouthpiece for Howells. Speaking of the elder Dryfoos,

 
‘he has sharpened, but he has narrowed; his sagacity has turned into suspicion, his caution to meanness, his courage to ferocity. That’s the way I phlosophize a man of Dryfoos’s experience, and I am not very proud when I realize that such a man and his experience are the ideal and ambition of most Americans. I rather think they came pretty near being mine, once.’

[Modern Library Classics edition, pp. 224-225]
 

A Hazard of New Fortunes

There is something raw in William Dean Howells’ novel of 19th century New York City life, the feel of a work handbuilt out of new materials. Perhaps the reader is observing the American novel of manners under construction. It’s not an entirely unpleasant experience, but one feels often the tentative character of the writing, the striving toward something that will be worthy of its European predecessors, yet will stand stoutly, independently, as a representative work for the developing land of America.

Most enjoyably, one feels the fresh air blown in with writing that is developing along with the yet new country of Howells’ day. Less enjoyably, one winces at the mannered naivete, the struggle to create a work of proportion and substance, and the author’s discomfort with a society whose culture is perhaps not yet worthy of the “high sentence” he wants to accord it.

Perhaps not surprisingly then, it is the social interactions among Howells’ characters that feel most stilted. While a competent painter of his characters’ interior lives, he often falls short of the mark when trying to create believable dialogue. See, for example, this interchange between Miss Vance and the painter Beaton, as they discuss newcomers to New York City:

 
‘Oh yes,’ said Miss Vance, fashionably, and looked down; then she looked up and said, intellectually: ‘Don’t you think it’s a great pity? How much better for them to have staid where they were and what they were!’
‘Then you could never have had any chance of meeting them,’ said Beaton. ‘I don’t suppose you intend to go out to the gas country?’
‘No,’ said Miss Vance, amused. ‘Not that I shouldn’t like to go.’
‘What a daring spirit! You ought to be on the staff of Every Other Week,’ said Beaton.

[A Hazard of New Fortunes, Modern Library Classic edition, p. 177]
 

 
Such dialogue, not only woodenly uninspired but unbelievable, is common in AHoNF; this excerpt also demonstrates a lack of finish which is often found in Howells’ writing: who knows after all, what it means to speak either “fashionably” or “intellectually,” or, for that matter, what it would contribute to our appreciation of this interaction between Miss Vance and Beaton if we did know.

Letter to Brian Greene

So much for sending my questions about cosmology and quantum mechanics to Brian Greene … the following email got kicked back from www.briangreene.org because the mailbox is full. Popular guy.

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Hello Brian,

I’m a huge fan of “The Fabric of the Cosmos” but, as a non-scientist, I struggle to understand physics. There are several questions that particularly irk me and, though I know you are probably deluged with such questions, I thought I would hazard an email.
1. Regarding space-time, is it really true that the past still exists and could be visited if we were able to move sufficiently far through space? This seems to be one implication of your “time-space-loaf” image, but perhaps I’m way off base here.
2. Re: quantum entanglement, I understand that measurement of spin, for instance, of an entangled particle instantaneously causes a correlated behavior in a partner particle, but, while I have heard numerous times that it is this measurement that causes one particle to “choose” a property, I do not understand how this is known … in other words, how can we know that it is the measurement that it is causing the choice, if we are not seeing the state of the particle before that measurement?
3. If we on Earth do not have a privileged position in the universe (i.e., we’re not “at the center of the universe”), how is it that we’re able to make determinations about the age of the universe? In other words, how can we see to the edge of the universe in all directions? And, as I think about it, perhaps it’s not relevant whether we’re at the center or not for the purposes of this question. I understand that, in looking through space we’re looking back in time, but aren’t there limits to how far we can see? So, in that case, how do we know we’ve reached “the edge” of space?
These may well be ridiculous questions, but I would be very appreciative of any response you can provide.
Regards,
Alex Stevenson